littlest things ♥

Friday, October 23, 2009

OneLast Chance.

optimism lives in me =)

this time round, nothing is gona stop me.
I am sorry for the empty promises.
but I just can't afford to fail again.

I'll put in my everyth.
after this dance comp,
there's gona be nth else.
No I don't deserve anyth.

Pw, Study, DanceComp, Fencing.
All at once. I can do it.
Not forgetting Scotland.
I am REALLY looking forward to that break.
I am very thankful for that break.
that one last break.

2more papers to come.
I can't change th present.
but I will control th future.

This time round,
do it right.

OneLast Chance.

definitely stronger, much much stronger after all these dramas.
I still believe things happen for a reason.
I wana look back and laugh at myself 3yrs down th road.
I will not disappoint them again.

I know I am hard to figure,
but I am fine.
though I don't mean it all th time.
rest assured,
I wished for th best outcome.

Stay truthful to yourself.
If you'd seen me cry,
you are definitely someone very special.

xoxo ♥

Monday, October 19, 2009

So, Promos was officially over last Monday after th last CSC paper in hall.
YAY.

Many many rdms happened. Too lazy to blog them all.. Hahah sorry guys.

Life now..
Busy with upcoming dance comp, it's totally like stressing me out sometimes when I think about it haha. Alright, not really "stressed", I am enjoying th process.. But, somehow I think there's still pw and promo results that are troubling me and they are like distractions. For dance itself, there's a lot to work out too. The whole thing is damn exciting to put it in a nice way. Working with a new group of people, Danny Zee Qian. Hahah "DRGZ" :) Hmm I hope this works out fine.. So uncertain things ahead. 31st Oct. It's coming really sooon and there's still so much to go ! Nevertheless, thanks a lot a lot a lot Mabel and Noobu :) Ehh we really need studio ! ): Partner parts need to synchro and all that.. th feeeeeeell.. must get it ! Alright I will work hard for this period of time. As long as it's something I likee..

Decisions. I wana learn so many things now. Return to guitar, hiphop, pilates.. plus there's gona be intense holiday training camps for fencing too. Speaking of fencing.. Got back to trng after 12456mths, totally cmi. Died. Wah so screwed. Muscle aches and all that totally stamina drop. Haihh. So much to catch up for interschools next yr. Damn. ): Hmm went swimming yesterday too. So it's much of fencing, dancing and swimming. Healthy lifestyle eh. I think my body totally can't adapt to this lifestyle after so many mths of not exercising properly and sit down there all day staring at disgusting notes.. Ah yah, so I was saying. I can't possibly learn everyth. Too many commitments. There's txy stuffs which I am super not actively participating too.. Omg. X.x I want more more more time !!! If I could, I'd rather not slp for now. Hahah living on caffeine. I just can't get over it. :X Oh man I am on drug lol.

This coming week.. Promos results. I am prepared for th worst.. Am I ? :/ I rlly duno how I will react. Okay I will put on some self control and laugh it off .. Yeah. Uncertainties. Retain ? Drop H2 subjects ? No more scholarship ? No more Scotland ? What's the worst ?

Pw. GG. Totally I really need to FOCUS and just sit here and stare and do my pw stuffzx. It's getting on my nerves totally. CMI. So sian, it's like promos is finally over and there's still pw and.. Alvl chi-.- Damnnn. Worst decision made ever I swear. Urgh.

Hmm but generally I can't really figure out what I am feeling now. I just wana tell myself to fulfill whatever I need to fulfill for now. One step at a time. I really dun wana think too much. I shall just let this busy life of mine take over me. I guess it's easier this way.. haha.

Umm if you don't know how to play this game called love, don't act like you do please.
It's disgusting.
Oh grow up kid.

Anyway, thanks for th wallet, roses, tatty, curler, eyeshadow, texts, cakes ..
To all those who know my secret .. :)

School tmr. Lalala. Dance dance dance.
Keep me off th ground.

xoxo ♥

Friday, October 09, 2009

Hahah all this while, it was a joke ..

Last paper on Monday, CSC paper 2. 3 essays I think. Will start to mug after lunch, wasted an entire morning alrd since Evelyn woke me up with a sweet phone call telling me how happy her dream is hahah. Thanks for pulling me out of my bed (:

Just finished cooking my maggie mee lunch realise I could cook quite well heheh (:

Promos was a joke, so funny that I wana laugh ..

Anyway I am addicted to littlest things by lily allen:

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD'sWhen I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you

Nice jazzy song.
Alright going off to have my maggie mee and watch BOF !

xoxo ♥

Monday, October 05, 2009

JIAYOU !!! HANG ON !!! =)

xoxo ♥

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Evelyn faved an interesting dA news :)

There are 12 shades of red ..

Falu red or Falun red (in Swedish Falu rödfärg) is the name of a Swedish, deep red paint well known for its use on wooden cottages and barns. The paint originated from the copper mine at Falun in Dalarna, Sweden. The traditional color remains popular today due to its effectiveness in preserving wood.

Scarlet (from the Persian säqirlāt) is a bright red color with a hue that is somewhat toward the orange. It is a pure chroma on the color wheel. It is redder than vermilion. Traditionally, scarlet is the color of flame. It may also refer to the color of the blood of a living person.

Carnelian is a color named after the carnelian variety of the mineral chalcedony. This semi-precious gemstone is noted for its rich shade of reddish-brown.

Red is any of a number of similar colors evoked by light consisting predominantly of the longest wavelengths of light discernible by the human eye, in the wavelength range of roughly 625–740 nm. Longer wavelengths than this are called infrared (below red), and cannot be seen by the naked human eye. Red is used as one of the additive primary colors of light, complementary to cyan, in RGB color systems. Red is also one of the subtractive primary colors of RYB color space but not CMYK color space.In human color psychology, red is associated with heat, energy, and blood, and emotions that "stir the blood", including anger, passion, love and pain.

Venetian red is a light and warm (somewhat unsaturated) pigment that is a darker shade of scarlet, derived from nearly pure ferric oxide (Fe2O3) of the hematite type. Modern versions are frequently made with synthetic red iron oxide.The first recorded use of Venetian red as a color name in English was in 1753.

Sangria is a color that resembles Sangría wine. Sangria can also be described as a burnt red. The word sangria comes from the Spanish word sangre, which means blood. This is an appropriate name considering the color, which it is. The color's name is similar to that of orange, as both are derived from a physical object. This is also the case for many other colors.

Maroon is a dark red color. Maroon is derived from French marron ("chestnut"). The first recorded use of Maroon as a color name in English was in 1789.

Carmine is the general term for a particularly deep red color. Some Rubies are colored the color shown below as rich carmine.

Vermilion, sometimes spelled vermillion, when found naturally occurring, is an opaque orangish red pigment, used since antiquity, originally derived from the powdered mineral cinnabar. Chemically, the pigment is mercuric sulfide, HgS, and like all mercury compounds it is toxic. Its name is derived from the French vermeil which was used to mean any red dye, and which itself comes from vermiculum, a red dye made from the insect Kermes vermilio. The word for the color red in Portuguese (vermelho) derives from this term.

Burgundy is a shade of purplish red associated with the Burgundy wine of the same name, which in turn is named after the Burgundy region of France. The color Burgundy is similar to other shades of dark red such as maroon. It is often called wine red, or simply wine.

Persimmon is a color that closely resembles the tint of a very ripe persimmon fruit (Persimmons can only be eaten if they are very ripe because otherwise the flavor is too astringent.) Persimmon can also be described as a medium orange-red. It is very similar to the tints of coral red and vermilion.

Magenta is a purplish-pink color evoked by lights with less power in yellowish-green wavelengths than in blue and red wavelengths (complements of magenta have wavelength 500–530 nm). In light experiments, magenta can be produced by removing the lime-green wavelengths from white light. It is an extra-spectral color, meaning it cannot be generated by a single wavelength of light, being a mixture of red and blue wavelengths. The name magenta comes from the dye magenta, commonly called fuchsine, discovered shortly after the 1859 Battle of Magenta near Magenta, Italy.In the Munsell color system, magenta is called red-purple. In the CMYK color model used in printing, it is one of the primary colors of ink. In the RGB color model, the secondary color created by mixing the red and blue primaries is called magenta or fuchsia, though this color differs in hue from printer’s magenta.

Now, which shade of red am I ..
I LOVE red, I really do (:

xoxo ♥

Thursday, September 10, 2009

not gona be caught in th middle ;

xoxo ♥

Right till today, I am still standing strong, thankyou bksy ♥ I know I said that I won't blog till after promos but th amt of dramas happening is suppressing my emotions and I really need somewhere to vent. I swear, th world is going crazy. Whirlwind, swirls, everyth is so weird and unexplainable. I am sick and tired of finding th ans to everyth cos I know they may not even exist in th first place. I am gona ask no more and just live.my.life in th most simplified way. Too many things, just too many..

SIMPLICITY. Many ppl just don't understand. Life is making so much fun of us, yet why must you create so many problems for yourself ? It's not too much to ask for right ? Just drama-less and pure simplicity. If you say that's naive and innocent, I'd rather be living in denial. I am tired, we all are. Just take it easy on ourselves. It is really not that hard if you try. It's really up to you to decide. Th decisions you made, th accidents that happened by accident, they all meant sth and will eventually lead you to somewhere.

Hmm I don't know why but I have been feeling quite numb for th past few weeks. It's like no matter what happened, I don't really seem to feel anyth. I fell down today, in th rain. It's my first ever slip and fall, okay I know it sounds drama but true. I was shocked at how I reacted. It wasn't painful at all. Somehow, it seemed to happen really slowly but yet it was a quick fall. I only remembered someone giving me a hand and helping me up. Th rain just kept falling like nobody's business intercepted by occasional claps of thunder. And there I was, half drenched. I really don't know why I could still be so calm. Is that me ? I feel as if I am writing a pri sch compo. This is so.surreal. So once again, I am half an hour late for math. Shouldn't have even gone since I didn't even prepared._.

Promos is coming in about 23 days I think. It's th final countdown and tmr's fri alrd, which means Sept hols is gona end very very soon and I don't think I accomplished much at all, wayy behind my schedule ): Bothering me real bad. Haih I really really need to work HARDER. That's why those things, I need to push them aside first. No screw ups before promos. I still wana go Scotland one okay !

Hey bksy (: I realllly treasure you a lot a lot a lot. I don't need to explain anyth here but you understand what I am feeeling now (= You changed my life. Pndtl ; Ynzh ; Bl (: So many memories, kept deep deeep deeeeeeep inside. We are STRONG now, much much stronger than what we used to be. I am PROUD of us. ♥ Scotland awaiting us fellow photographer !

♥ you (:

This BIG complex thing, which you and I don't quite understand. I don't wana hurt anyone. But I don't wana deceive anyone either. There are so many, which I used to be eager to know about you, but now, I don't really care anymore. I am sick and tired of guessing and deducing. This is getting me nowhere and it's not worth my time. I just wana let it move on its own. When you are not in control, there is no point persisting. And you, I really hope you get what I am implying. I am really afraid of hurting you. It's so unfair for you but I am sorry. Tell me what to do..

Okay it's 11:54pm T.T I realllly neeeeed to do pw. Th most hated subj on earth. Dread it like hellllllll man ): Rah okay it's gona be th last day of hol tmr treasure it ppl ! ): And what can be worse, there's still econs lessons. What a way to end it off. But at night .. (:

Good luck everyone for promos (:

xoxo. till then

xoxo ♥

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND ! :D (sounds like the garlic chilli in macs -.-)

Anyway IE is working so slowly these days I wonder why and so I have switched to Safari which is like 131238567times faster and nicer :D Yupp Apple ftw ! I am so gona get a Mac next time it's like so useful for designing etc. Okay this part is so random.

Eh ! So life has been so fast paced ! It's like getting faster and faster. Guess what, it's 50+ days to promos. What can I say ? How about a round of applause ? My mugging plan is out but I am struggling to keep up. It's really really tough that sometimes, the I-feel-like-breaking-down feeling comes back again. But NO, I can't screw this again. Esp. after all the sessions and promises I'd made. No it MUST not happen again. I am serious. So this is probably the last time you will see me blogging before promos. :/ BWAH.

I am trying so hard to be positive these days. No time to think, I should just move on and stop all those distractions. I don't want to care anymore. It should be just MUG and MUG ONLY. I know it sounds totally no life man. -.- But I really neeeed to mug. Okay I must endure the last 60+ days till promos is over and after that, omg I am just SO EXCITED. In fact, I got it all planned out alrd. Don't blame me. I need motivations, even more of them at this critical point.

1) Sleepovers/Gatherings/Outings/Eating sessions/Lalaing.. with M.O.I !

2) Revamp dA w Evelyn (EXTREME make-over !) photography, ps, writeee !!

3) Go Genting w Valerie ! I can't wait this is so much fun man !

hahah Val yeah I AM stalking you :D HAHA I don't hv any recent pic w you ! ):

4) Go out w my stupid bff who always takes DECADES to reply messages tsk
5) Go out w Bojia th hardcore muggggger ! Stop mugging th wrong stuff la !

6) Go out w beee and debbiee ! Our long overdued date :/
7) Psch (yes psch-.-) gatherings !
8) PARTY. suppppperclubbbb. Ah.
9) Shoppings w Sara etc. OMG this excites me.
10) WORK. $$ come to me muacks.
11) BSP Europe trip !
12) Family overseas trip !! SHOPPPP.
13) Sentosa w Qian. BEACHH !
14) Chalets etc..

And th list just goes ON.. :D
BUT !
All these are provided I don't screw up my promos.
Or else, Idk._.

SO, these sum up why I should just be a MUGGGER for the next 2 mths=.=
It's worth it really.
Since this is my final post before promos, shall end it off with nice dA pictures :)
I am still waiting for my dA HOODIE ! CAN'T WAIT! Quickly comee ! :D
Okay goodbye my beloved blog (for now) I love you :)

All pics credit to deviantART.

HIATUS;

xoxo ♥

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Rah :/ My acc. cont to have this prob of not being able to change the font/color etc. I am too lazy to type in the html code shall just see when it's gona be back to normal ? ._.

Hahah I went to check my twitter just now and guess what I saw :D

ladygagaSo jealous wanna die my best friends are seeing glasvegas and I'm nottt with them.. geraldine! I will wear raybans and do my makeup instead.

Lol fyi I LOVE GAGA and am following her on twitter hahah and I see my name pretty amusing :D

Oh check out this cooool gaga eye make up tutorial it's fabulous ! Gona try it after promos :D

School is so tiring ): TWO more days to weekends :)
Then Sat is gona burn(literally under th sun) again. Preview jiayou ppl :)
But still, I love love love weekends more than anyth !

Training is quite tiring today, gona expect muscle aches tmr but I likeee lol trng again tmr LONG DAY AHEAD :O
W gp compre test tooo woah pull thru ! D:

Short post, cannot stand the ugly font and color hmph !

edit/
YAY my fonts, colors and everyth else ie. th whole tool bar is back ! :D
But it's damn late now, shall stop here anyway.
I haven't done any work yet ._.
And I am SUPER shagged alrd ):
Goodnight world, goodnight gaga love !

xoxo ♥

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Eh there seems to be some problem with posting today :/ Can't change the font, color etc.

Anyway, the past few weeks had been fulfilling as always :) I have decided to use th word fulfilling instead of like mad rush, whirlwind etc. Hahah positive positive !

NDP NE3 yesterday was fun although I was rlly shagged towards th end, considering the fact that I rushed down from training to ground. So there goes my Saturday once again heh. I am not complaining and it's not an excuse cos I chose to participate in my commitments so yeah :)

Coming week is filled with tests and assignments rahh :/ Another week to endure, but I must not put up the get it over and done with attitude alrd ! Cos promos is coming in like 70 days and this time round, I really really need to buck up alrd or else I may just be retained ._. which is a nono I DONT WANT !! Argh so everyone let's work hard and really anticipate a BREAK after everyth :)

Okay back to EoM Zzz

xoxo ♥